A friend of a friend of a friend HAD to have gotten me sick, since my immune system is stronger than an ox. not.  

What i thought was strep throat led me to insanity. literally. i have been in bed since last thursday, popping codeine and antibiotics on an empty stomach. All i remember are peach smoothies, and being sedated in bed watching king of queens. straw in my mouth. numb. need food. dear god i need food, but by day 5 the nerves in my tongue decided to call it quits. i have been talking like an 11 year old with braces, full of spit in my mouth. speech impaired.

Today i got out of bed and walked to veggie grill.. i pretended my mouth wasnt sore and i ate my whole meal, bleeding gums and all. im shameless

and finally full.

Words are not enough Words are speed bumps, symbols chosen to describe a fleeting idea. The mouth, quite sadly, simply cannot run as quickly as the mind, In the translation from thought to words, ideas are lost, and we find ourselves articulating mere fractions of the original wholes. Words are simply crumbs of the once freshly baked bread in our minds. we communicate just enough to survive, yet never enough to reach parity, we find ourselves sickly satisfied with this contact and gamble the chance of having our message lost and misinterpreted in the tangled mess of wires in another’s mind. Unlike words, thoughts are fixed, and far from the reach of the hands of another, they are unable to be stolen and manipulated. 

drunk randoms, the smell of the salty bay, pictures, calm waves, more pictures. summer dresses and sun soaked legs, we lay on the shallow tip of the boat, so close to the sea, the wind pounding through everyones face i felt as though my eyelashes would fly off. Soberly, watching the scene objectively, as though i was not actually there. close bodies and laughter and love, this must be fun, but all i can think is, this is too much. What did i do to deserve this? 

About to board a private jet to San Fran with some friends. A much needed vacation,  along with a beautiful penthouse. Breakfast in bed, and lots of photography. Update you all soon <3

You have the golden touch today, Aquarius. If there is a goal that’s been close to your heart recently, this is the perfect day to reach for it. That doesn’t mean you have a magic wand that you simply need to wave and cause your wishes to materialize, but if you put your faith, passion, and the power of your belief into something you want now, you have an excellent chance of making it happen. As long as your intentions are pure, you can make great progress in manifesting your desire - so reach for the stars.

im happiest when the streets are wet. when the sunshine is hiding behind the clouds and the air is raw. when the smell of dewy grass and foggy rain fill up my lungs. When the city is cool and crisp… it almost stings your skin. When the colors around you just pop up in vibrations from all the rain, like a picasso painting. For that moment, im the happiest i have ever been. Waking up to open blinds, and a breathtaking view.. knowing the sun wasnt the reason for me getting out of bed, instead, the day ahead was.

i am at a complete standstill. what do you do when you are absolutely content? do you find more goals to achieve, or more places to go? Do you pretend you’re unhappy just to be comforted? or do you let go and live? No matter what happens.. the world is still spinning. You meet these incredible people who have sucked the poison out of their life, and then you go ahead and dump yours on them. We all just feed off one another. Ive got answers for everyone, and endless excuses. jealous friends, and loyal enemies.